im like dead but alive; contradicting myself

God, this life is like coming to an end siarh. stupid life man. FnN is like tedious and mid year is on its way. Im so scared that i'll fail my mid year exams. Man, im like freaking out. Can i cope? Argh !!!!

I'm trying to cope. Im putting myself together. I just hope i could survive till o's are over.

its okay

Keep telling myself that its okay even when i know its not. I know I have to  be strong but remembering you really breaks me apart. I need someone to keep me going on but i keep staying put and reminisce the past memoirs.

 It hurts to think about the past sometimes but it equally hurts to just walk away from all the hurt. I could walk away but the hurt still stays on longer. This really sucks but i've got to suck it up and live with it.

Bored like f****

FnN now. Damn larh. From 9am till like 5pm later. Wad the heck man. Im like so hungry coz we ran out of time while cooking just now and so there's no break. We were given like 15 minutes of break but wad to eat ? Wad the freak?

OMG !!!

Popgloss.com is soooooooo cool. It  has all the greatest accesories, tops and soo much more !!! Gonna go again !!!

holidays !!!!

Well, its officially the school holidays but it doesn't seem that way for me. I still need to come back for FnN lessons. God, today the lesson is till 5pm. I'm gonna be blind staring at the screen. So, Ms Lee wants our coursework by end of June or 28th June. It is excluding whether she approved that it is of a high band or not. Pfft. If im going to make it, i'll celebrate at the end of the day.

 So, I've read Nicholas Sparks' books and seriously, his books are great. Nights in Rodanthe, The Choice, Notebook and alot more. Most of the stories are about love and families so it tend to be a sensitive issue. Hahas. Kamilah has just made the com lab colder. God, She's wearing adidas jacket and its friggin' thick !!! Grr.

Lunch will bw at 1pm. Okay, so we did something wrong. We smuggled food and drinks inside the com lab. Shh. Hahah. God, I'm freezing siarh.
Aniwae, i gotta go before i get caught red handed.