I'm sorry

I'm sorry. I really am..but how could i prove it to you when i'm not even ready to forgive myself for what i've done. I feel so miserable facing her yet fighting the urge to not cry. I'm trying yet you aren't. I'm making amends yet you had to be stubborn I really am sorry for hurting you mum. Touch your heart and feel the heartbeat. Will you regret if i have to leave you suddenly? Will you think of me when i'm actually gone from your life or will you think its a relief? I'm sorry, i know it's my fault but things aren't the same anymore.

Maybe its best i stay away s your relationship with them gets better. I don't mind if you scold me again. Just don't treat me like i don't exist. Thanks for the previous love, care and concern. But that was history mum. Im different now.

malay oral

well,had lunch with amirul and eqa. Next. we went to deyi. Rched at around 1:30pm and was like paranoid coz we're in a totally different environment. Haix. Ape saje larh kiteorang.

Next, we went to the hall and was like the only the only people talking and laughing. Haix. Wad the heck. So random larhs. So i was third and finished. God, i totally screwed up. Damned. Pfft. I totally break down and cried. And it lead to wad im going thru at hme. Hmpf. Its been thirteen days since i talked to her and im still counting. haix.

So, im at kamilah's crib and trying to focus on fnn. Haix. Oral is over, for malay only. Hmpf. Gotta buck up for english though. Haiyer. I guess i better go now.