Random days!!!

Well,today have been really random as the whole school are having their exams so we Sec 4Es have the whole canteen too uourselves just like during lunch! Hehe!!

So,im fine with Kamilah now. We had a looooong talk on the phone yesterday. So i Saw Amirul at amk central yesterday and he totally ignored me. Well, wadevers.

Currently having english and f-bing at com lab 4. God, the class is so chaotic !! Hahahahahah!!! So random larhs!!! The school is like kinda creepy without the noise so any noise made and the sec 4Es will be blamed. Hmpf. So POA and Maths was a breeze. I was multi-tasking. Filing, writing notes, reading mag as well as texting. And doing worksheets. Haha. Random nak mampos.

Well, i stayed up till like 3am to finish up my POA,Maths ws, do filing for all the subjects and also i had time to even colour my maths notes! Its so colourfullllllllllll !!!
Hahah. Random random random that's my middle name !!!

Haha!! Well, i gotta go now!! Updates soon okays!

Happy happy happy!!!!

Well well well!!!! I'm having a fine day today ! I'm sooooooooo happy i'm in such a good moooooood!!! Hahaha!!!! So random !!! So things are okay now, no problems soo far.

Strong; not physically nor mentally

Yesterday went back home early coz there was no training. Haix. So was like studying and little sis came home and was making a racket !!!! So i told her off. Got told off by my mum instead. She said if im not happy, i could get out nof the house. So i did. I left the house again. It was around two plus in the afternoon. I grabbed my stuffs and walked out of the house, not stopping at the next block like i usually did. I went on, walked to the library and spent my time til around 5 plus then i dragged myself around the neighbourhood. So i texted Zul and he was such a good friend.

He advised me to go home amd well, I sat under a random block and cried my eyes out. Haix. At least someone still cares. Haix. So i was feeling so friggin' emo the whole day yesterday. Hmph. So went home. Mum went out and stupid little sis sleeping. So texted him till like 9 plus and i read Nicholas Spark's book too. Texted till i fell asleep. I woke up,got my stuff for fnn ready then i texted Zul tt i wanted to sleep. So,i drufted off to sleep but kept waking up in the middle of the nite.

Damn,haix. Will this go on forever? Am i strong enough to carry on ???

its so complicated

Today's Monday and i'm having friggin' Moday blues. Can call it my 'Grouchy Day' cause i really have been grouchy all day long. Well, first period is Maths. Woohoo!! Test is postphoned til tomorrow. Phew, relieved cause there are some questions i'm not able to do for homework. We did some of the qns in txtbk and i understood! Hope i could do my test tmr.

After maths, had poa and was kinda blur cause Miss Ma was using some poa technical terms. God, takes time to understand. After that,had mly. Mdm Tay sat in our class and we payed attention and Cikgu was trying to explain some stuffs to us but hardly anything gets in my head. Damn. Though tt happened, I managed to finish 2 wksheets. Next was chem. God, so confusing. Practical. I did the second damn test and the friggin cork popped and left green stains on my friggin paper and table !!!! Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!! So, i gave up halfway through and just finished my paper then handed up.

Recess was the time that actually changed my mood cause sumting happened. I was very happy, smiling. At last, for the day. Had english and physics. Then lunch and had fnn. Had test then cher talked about fnn stuff but hui min and me was like half-dead already. Then had the friggin geog. The tcher was like asking qns and we kept crapping and giving siily answers. Jing Ni brought amster to class and Li Hui kept trying to get the hamster out. I'm not afraid. Just..very squeamish?

So, finally i'm in com lab,trying to do my fnn, blogging, fb-ing, google-ing and uploading stuffs online. Multi tasking all the way till 5:30pm then gonna bus hme and do my hw.

Gonna get white shirt and court shoes ready for tmr's LAST rehearsal. Scary scary scary!!!!!!
Haix, stepping down already. Its a relief but im kinda sad too. Gonna miss the juniors as we spent time together, crapping and doing alot of other silly stuffs. Haix, gotta go now. I wanna look for blogskin. Gonna change it. Haha. Chiao ppl!

sian sian sian!!!

Well,having FnN lesson right now. So bored and tired man. Currently trying to do the damn coursework but the com is so lag. Argh!!!

Yesterday had Sports Fiesta and Pyros was crowned the champion. Hmm,congrats guys !
So friggin tired from al the running around and was like slacking at home. Was supposed to go for HRC but i did not go. I wanna do coursework but i feel kinda guilty for not being present for HRC. Sorry my peeps who's angry and cursing me right now for not coming. FnN comes first.

Life kinda suck right now cause it just is sucking right now!!! Haix. Im like so confused. What am i feeling right now? Which him is it? Can't i just forget the him who's so far away and beyond reach? I could only meet him next year, on the 4th of April. That date is etched on my mind on the day that he left and promised to come back. Haix.

The other him is so near yet he's just soooo far. It's complicated. I've been thimking about them and it just gets worse everyday trying to move on. People come but the pain and hurt stay longer than the person does.

Well, i gotta be thinking about my studies too,right? Studies are fine. Im coping fine,especially with maths. Strangely,but true. Im loving the subjects that i hated sooo much before. Geography is finally making sense to me after 3 years of forced studying.

To him: Im sorry if i've given you false hopes but i just want to continue being friends with you. Find someone else,im not good enough for you. Im not that person you know me for. I don't want to hurt you at the end of the day. Please,forget me for the Ain you knew. Im different now.

Haix,i gotta go now. Peace out babes and dudes.