Now life like shit. Tomorrow's gonna be crazy. I'm going crazy staring at his profile again and again. What is it about him that i can't seem to let go? What made me go crazy even at the sound of his name mentioned? I don't know. it hurts that he's just within reach but i can't seem to be able to touch him and hold on to him.
It's been tough since the start of the year. I was hoping for twist of tales but unfortunately things don't go my way. I've been trying my best in everything. But when it comes to relationship wise, i just totally give up. I don't wat anyone close, don't want them to know me. Cause once they know me, they always hurt me. It sucks to be in my shoes. Living a frigiin' life of pretense and living up to everyone's expectations, not being able to be free enough to live my life the way i want it.
I want this to end. Real soon. But i feel like i don't deserve a chance to step out of this life. Like it's already a part of me i can't seem to throw away. I feel like changing, once again. Like i want to run away from all these pain.